Some years ago there was a Pakistani woman in the city of Karachi who ran a brothel. One night her son returned from the mosque after the nightly Ramadan taraweeh prayers with an audio CD. It was being distributed outside the mosque so he picked one up.
Later that night he was playing that CD in the house when his mum walked past. She sat down and began to listen to it. She stayed there until it finished, then told her son, “Play it again.”
He played it again. Then she again asked him, “Play it again.” So he repeated it. This went on until she had heard it three times.
“Who is the man on the CD?” she asked her son.
“I don’t know,” he replied. “They were giving it out at the mosque so I took one.”
The next night the woman went to that mosque with her son. She waited outside until the taraweeh prayers finished, then asked her son to bring the imam to speak to her.
When the imam came, the woman asked him, “Did you give this CD to my son yesterday?”
“Yes, why?” the imam answered.
“Who is the man on the CD?” she asked.
“It is my teacher, a man by the name of Maulana Tariq Jameel,” the imam replied.
“If I ask you a question, will you give me an honest answer?” the woman asked.
“Of course,” said the imam.
“Will Allah accept my repentance if I choose to repent to Him?” she asked the imam.
“Why? What have you done?” the imam answered.
“Imagine the worst sins that any man or woman can do, and multiply them,” the woman replied. “That is what I have done.”
The imam then said to her, “I won’t give you my answer, but I will give you the answer Allah gave in the Quran, ‘Say O My servants who have wronged their own souls (by sinning), never despair of the Mercy of Allah. Indeed Allah forgives ALL sins. Indeed He is The Forgiving, The Merciful.’ [39:53]'”
Upon hearing this, the woman replied, “In that case, I want you to bear witness that today I have repented to Allah.”
The next night, the woman came to the mosque for the nightly taraweeh prayers. She stayed there and prayed all of the prayers. At the end, she said out loudly, “O Allah! If You accept my repentance, then take my soul now!”
The next night the woman returned, prayed all the taraweeh prayers and then at the end she again said out loudly, “O Allah! If You accept my repentance, then take my soul now!”
This continued the next night. And the night after that. And after that. Until the 29th night of Ramadan when the Quran was finished.
After the Quran was finished and the imam had completed his dua, the worshippers got up to leave the mosque. All left except one person.
That same woman.
She was still in prostration. She had passed away during the prayer.
I heard the above story during an audio lecture in Urdu by Maulana Tariq Jameel, one of the world’s most gifted speakers and one of my favourite speakers.
If you understand Urdu, find him on Youtube. His words will melt your heart.
Never let anyone tell you that Allah will not accept your repentance, no matter what you have done. Those who try to tell the people that there is no way back to Him lie against Allah.
Whoever you are, whatever you have done, even if your sins reach the skies, if you turn to Him with an open heart, He will forgive you.
Remember that as we enter upon Ramadan.
Ramadan Kareem and may Allah bless our Ramadan, answer our duas and forgive all our sins.
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